Day 34: Some Days are Like This

It’s evening time. I usually have my blog post written and posted sometime in the first part of the day. By noon at the very latest. But that wasn’t gonna happen to today. Little Miss Toddler Girl was up and roaring to go when I had just started to deepen into meditation. Shortly after, I  lost my hour of toddler-approved distraction that usually comes with having electricity and access to Netflix. The power went out and there went my opportunity to write.

So instead of our typical morning, Little Miss Toddler Girl wanted to play with Play-Doh. She wanted to color. She wanted to tear the paper she was coloring on into tiny bits. She wanted to play in the toilet and dump some water on the floor. She wanted to spread flour in a circular fashion onto the kitchen floor while I was cleaning up the wet bathroom floor. She was basically a three foot tall tornado.

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Now, I often consider how much TV I allow Little Miss Toddler Girl to watch in the morning and find myself concerned about her little mind.  But then I realize how intensely creative she is when not distracted and sitting quietly for an hour or so in the morning, watching one of her shows. And you know what? I can’t be concerned or worry. That hour or so in the morning is part of our routine that works. That hour or so in the morning allows me to write my blog post and get ready for the day.

So what’s my point? Parents of the Toddlers…some days are like this. You’ll be thrown off your routines, messes will happen and with just those happenings, you could be thrown off for the whole day. Or, you can make the most of it. We moved on from destroying the house to playing with friends at a place that had several bouncy houses, a ball pit, and cool slides. We made the day work despite the challenges. It’s been a really good day. Some days are like this. Some days just need you to go with the flow, clean the messes, and be on with your day.

And now my blog post is done. As always dear readers, thank you for being here. I really appreciate it. Much love, many hugs, Namaste. ❤


My Mental House – Plans & Goals for Healing from Depression

Goal — To Gain Clarity

Plan — Meditate for at least 10 minutes daily, eventually expanding on the amount of time a couple minutes per day, with 20 minutes of daily meditation being the target sit time.  I meditate on most days for anywhere between 5-20 minutes. Meditation helps me to set positive intentions for the day. On the most difficult days, I’ve noted that meditation really helps me to work through my symptoms. I depend on deep breathing to bring me back to the present when depression knocks me into the past, or anxiety flings me into worrying about the future.

More Plans — Go to bed and get up at the same time every day. Lights out by 10pm and wake up at 7am would be a good starting point for me. Lights have typically been out between 10-11pm. Waking happens between 7-8am. I’ve been sleeping well consistently for a couple weeks. This schedule has really been working out for me.

Goal — To Reduce and Prevent Insomnia

Plan – No electronic devices before meditation/yoga practice in the morning. Never. My phone and tablet aren’t even allowed in the bedroom. This is so important for me to have a fresh start daily. No electronic devices for at least one hour before bedtime.Yeah…Gotta get better about this!!! 

Plan – Read more books instead of staring at electronic devices, especially at night READ BOOKS, NOT ELECTRONICS!!! Definitely need to implement this plan. I NEED A NOVEL!!! Or a memoir!!! Suggestions welcome!!!

Goal — To Relieve Depressed Mood, Anxiety Symptoms, and Relieve Pain

Plan — Move!!!! Yoga, Swim, Walk – DO ONE OF THESE ACTIVITIES DAILY – Moving daily helps  me to be grounded and present. 

Yoga — Attend at least 2 classes a week, practice most days of the week for a minimum of 15 minutes a day. Practice in the morning after waking. May precede meditation. I’ve been attending aerial yoga, heated vinyasa classes – sometimes 3 times a week. My mind and body and yoga practice have been invigorated by these classes!

Swim — 10–20 laps Happens 1-2x per week

Walk — Just get out and walk. Happens 2-3x per week

More Plans — Medicate with cannabis as needed.

  • 1-3 inhales from a vaporizer with a CBD-rich strain first thing in the morning if panic/anxiety/pain not relieved by self care bodywork is on board – Will be trying Mary’s Nutritionals CBD Products for relief of these symptoms 
  • 2–3 inhales from a vaporizer with an indica-dominant strain by 7:30pm to reduce tension and promote sleep. Dakini Kush is an indica dominant strain that I’ve been using nightly. I’ve been sleeping well through the night for a couple weeks. Thank goodness!

Goal — To Nourish My Body To Heal Up From Depression, Anxiety, and Panic

Plan – In the morning — Smoothie (I have a kefir, kombucha, Vega Protein Powder, and Amazing Grass Superfood smoothie every morning.)

28 Days of Clean Eating inspired meals – Love this book, need to focus on implementing this plan. It’s too easy to fall into cooking ruts!


Day 33: When Opportunity Knocks

I just finished my sit. It was toddler-assisted and peaceful on this rainy summer morning. My mind quieted easily, my body let go with each breath. Bringing calm into my body isn’t always easy, but today my body softened without much effort or protest. This is a good start as I have a great deal of work to do today!

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I’m not a public speaker, nor have I stood in front of a very large crowd that hovers in the tens of thousands! I have been on stage, I have performed –  but it’s been years. Gasp! Someone somewhere said to do one thing everyday that scares you. How about one big thing that scares you for days, weeks, months? I know I’ll be fine, but it occurred to me that this event is a mere month away! Sooo…time to put my head down and prepare. Opportunity is a knockin’ and I’ve got to be ready to welcome it in, make it tea, and let it show me the way to making my dreams coming true. And in case you were wondering, I fully believe in dreams and wishes coming true!

Dear readers – Wishing you a bright and beautiful day today and always! May all of your own dreams and wishes come true! Much love, many hugs. Namaste. ❤️


My Mental House – Plans & Goals for Healing from Depression

Goal — To Gain Clarity

Plan — Meditate for at least 10 minutes daily, eventually expanding on the amount of time a couple minutes per day, with 20 minutes of daily meditation being the target sit time.  I meditate on most days for anywhere between 5-20 minutes. Meditation helps me to set positive intentions for the day. On the most difficult days, I’ve noted that meditation really helps me to work through my symptoms. I depend on deep breathing to bring me back to the present when depression knocks me into the past, or anxiety flings me into worrying about the future.

More Plans — Go to bed and get up at the same time every day. Lights out by 10pm and wake up at 7am would be a good starting point for me. Lights have typically been out between 10-11pm. Waking happens between 7-8am. I’ve been sleeping well consistently for a couple weeks. This schedule has really been working out for me.

Goal — To Reduce and Prevent Insomnia

Plan – No electronic devices before meditation/yoga practice in the morning. Never. My phone and tablet aren’t even allowed in the bedroom. This is so important for me to have a fresh start daily. No electronic devices for at least one hour before bedtime.Yeah…Gotta get better about this!!! 

Plan – Read more books instead of staring at electronic devices, especially at night READ BOOKS, NOT ELECTRONICS!!! Definitely need to implement this plan. I NEED A NOVEL!!! Or a memoir!!! Suggestions welcome!!!

Goal — To Relieve Depressed Mood, Anxiety Symptoms, and Relieve Pain

Plan — Move!!!! Yoga, Swim, Walk – DO ONE OF THESE ACTIVITIES DAILY – Moving daily helps  me to be grounded and present. 

Yoga — Attend at least 2 classes a week, practice most days of the week for a minimum of 15 minutes a day. Practice in the morning after waking. May precede meditation. I’ve been attending aerial yoga, heated vinyasa classes – sometimes 3 times a week. My mind and body and yoga practice have been invigorated by these classes!

Swim — 10–20 laps Happens 1-2x per week

Walk — Just get out and walk. Happens 2-3x per week

More Plans — Medicate with cannabis as needed.

  • 1-3 inhales from a vaporizer with a CBD-rich strain first thing in the morning if panic/anxiety/pain not relieved by self care bodywork is on board – Will be trying Mary’s Nutritionals CBD Products for relief of these symptoms 
  • 2–3 inhales from a vaporizer with an indica-dominant strain by 7:30pm to reduce tension and promote sleep. Dakini Kush is an indica dominant strain that I’ve been using nightly. I’ve been sleeping well through the night for a couple weeks. Thank goodness!

Goal — To Nourish My Body To Heal Up From Depression, Anxiety, and Panic

Plan – In the morning — Smoothie (I have a kefir, kombucha, Vega Protein Powder, and Amazing Grass Superfood smoothie every morning.)

28 Days of Clean Eating inspired meals – Love this book, need to focus on implementing this plan. It’s too easy to fall into cooking ruts!



Day 32: Monday

It’s Monday. I didn’t sleep very much last night. But I got up at 7am and enjoyed a 25 minute sit. Meditation always makes the day more manageable. I woke up with a little bit of anxiety that quickly floated off with some deep breathing. Thank goodness. I feel like I’m back in control, back in the driver seat. Exclamation Point finally showed up and that PMS bitch finally left. And despite feeling pretty tired, I at least have the ability to help myself be calm. And to control my mood. I’ll take it.

Little Miss Toddler Girl just came out for morning snuggles. I’ll take some snuggles too. She fills my cup, she fills my cup. Being a Mama is such a blessing. ❤️

IMG_20170814_081550Dear readers – Wishing you a good, positive start to your week! May your Monday be kind to you, may you have a fabulous week!

Much love, many hugs. Namaste ❤️


My Mental House – Plans & Goals for Healing from Depression

Goal — To Gain Clarity

Plan — Meditate for at least 10 minutes daily, eventually expanding on the amount of time a couple minutes per day, with 20 minutes of daily meditation being the target sit time.  I meditate on most days for anywhere between 5-20 minutes. Meditation helps me to set positive intentions for the day. On the most difficult days, I’ve noted that meditation really helps me to work through my symptoms. I depend on deep breathing to bring me back to the present when depression knocks me into the past, or anxiety flings me into worrying about the future.

More Plans — Go to bed and get up at the same time every day. Lights out by 10pm and wake up at 7am would be a good starting point for me. Lights have typically been out between 10-11pm. Waking happens between 7-8am. I’ve been sleeping well consistently for a couple weeks. This schedule has really been working out for me.

Goal — To Reduce and Prevent Insomnia

Plan – No electronic devices before meditation/yoga practice in the morning. Never. My phone and tablet aren’t even allowed in the bedroom. This is so important for me to have a fresh start daily. No electronic devices for at least one hour before bedtime.Yeah…Gotta get better about this!!! 

Plan – Read more books instead of staring at electronic devices, especially at night READ BOOKS, NOT ELECTRONICS!!! Definitely need to implement this plan. I NEED A NOVEL!!! Or a memoir!!! Suggestions welcome!!!

Goal — To Relieve Depressed Mood, Anxiety Symptoms, and Relieve Pain

Plan — Move!!!! Yoga, Swim, Walk – DO ONE OF THESE ACTIVITIES DAILY – Moving daily helps  me to be grounded and present. 

Yoga — Attend at least 2 classes a week, practice most days of the week for a minimum of 15 minutes a day. Practice in the morning after waking. May precede meditation. I’ve been attending aerial yoga, heated vinyasa classes – sometimes 3 times a week. My mind and body and yoga practice have been invigorated by these classes!

Swim — 10–20 laps Happens 1-2x per week

Walk — Just get out and walk. Happens 2-3x per week

More Plans — Medicate with cannabis as needed.

  • 1-3 inhales from a vaporizer with a CBD-rich strain first thing in the morning if panic/anxiety/pain not relieved by self care bodywork is on board – Will be trying Mary’s Nutritionals CBD Products for relief of these symptoms 
  • 2–3 inhales from a vaporizer with an indica-dominant strain by 7:30pm to reduce tension and promote sleep. Dakini Kush is an indica dominant strain that I’ve been using nightly. I’ve been sleeping well through the night for a couple weeks. Thank goodness!

Goal — To Nourish My Body To Heal Up From Depression, Anxiety, and Panic

Plan – In the morning — Smoothie (I have a kefir, kombucha, Vega Protein Powder, and Amazing Grass Superfood smoothie every morning.)

28 Days of Clean Eating inspired meals – Love this book, need to focus on implementing this plan. It’s too easy to fall into cooking ruts!


Day 31: Connecting the Dots

Yesterday, I was really bummed out because I’ve been working really hard to reduce and eliminate this depressive funk I’ve been in since weaning my daughter from breastfeeding. Unfortunately, despite all of my efforts, PMS turns up bearing her teeth which tends to make me feel like I’m starting from square one every damn month. Panic and anxiety consumed a fair amount of yesterday. I couldn’t shake feeling sad, and at times lost. I medicated with cannabis several times to elevate my mood and to promote sleep last night. I was glad to put the day to rest. I did sleep, I feel much better this morning. Onward and upward.

So in my efforts to make myself feel better, I went to the local bookstore to purchase a book that’s been on my radar this summer. But it seemed like not much was going my way yesterday, certainly not much good anyway. So the bookstore was sold out of the book I wanted. Sigh. We did find a very cool book for a new buddy who is currently incubating and due to arrive this fall. I’ll be celebrating with his Momma today as we are showering her with everything she’ll need to welcome him into this world. Can’t wait!

Anyhow, back to yesterday. We had a couple other errands to run and in the process, Little Miss Toddler Girl fell asleep for her nap. So I opened the Kindle app on my phone and decided to dig into the electronic version of the book.

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Money: A Love Story is by Kate Northrup. Kate Northrup is the daughter of world-renowned OB/GYN physician and best-selling author Dr. Christiane Northrup. Dr. Northrup provided the Foreword for Kate’s book. She discussed her own history of getting her financial house in order as a young married woman, she discussed how ignorant she was as she worked from debt to financial freedom, and she also discussed the connection between financial health and the health of the second chakra. This chakra centers on the organs of reproduction, the function of the bladder, part of the bowel, and the low back. Hmmm. This helped me to connect some dots. I don’t have bowel issues thankfully, by my low back is always sensitive and obviously my hormones are out of whack. So I’m looking forward to diving into this book and I’m very inspired to work toward financial freedom, so that my body can be well too. Me thinks it’s time for the student debt to take a long, permanent walk. I knew I’ve been needing this book! I will keep you on my journey toward financial freedom.

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Dear readers – Thank you for being here. I appreciate it. Wishing you a bright, beautiful day today and always! Much love, many hugs, Namaste. ❤


My Mental House – Plans & Goals for Healing from Depression

Goal — To Gain Clarity

Plan — Meditate for at least 10 minutes daily, eventually expanding on the amount of time a couple minutes per day, with 20 minutes of daily meditation being the target sit time.  I meditate on most days for anywhere between 5-20 minutes. Meditation helps me to set positive intentions for the day. On the most difficult days, I’ve noted that meditation really helps me to work through my symptoms. I depend on deep breathing to bring me back to the present when depression knocks me into the past, or anxiety flings me into worrying about the future.

More Plans — Go to bed and get up at the same time every day. Lights out by 10pm and wake up at 7am would be a good starting point for me. Lights have typically been out between 10-11pm. Waking happens between 7-8am. I’ve been sleeping well consistently for a couple weeks. This schedule has really been working out for me.

Goal — To Reduce and Prevent Insomnia

Plan – No electronic devices before meditation/yoga practice in the morning. Never. My phone and tablet aren’t even allowed in the bedroom. This is so important for me to have a fresh start daily. No electronic devices for at least one hour before bedtime.Yeah…Gotta get better about this!!! 

Plan – Read more books instead of staring at electronic devices, especially at night READ BOOKS, NOT ELECTRONICS!!! Definitely need to implement this plan. I NEED A NOVEL!!! Or a memoir!!! Suggestions welcome!!!

Goal — To Relieve Depressed Mood, Anxiety Symptoms, and Relieve Pain

Plan — Move!!!! Yoga, Swim, Walk – DO ONE OF THESE ACTIVITIES DAILY – Moving daily helps  me to be grounded and present. 

Yoga — Attend at least 2 classes a week, practice most days of the week for a minimum of 15 minutes a day. Practice in the morning after waking. May precede meditation. I’ve been attending aerial yoga, heated vinyasa classes – sometimes 3 times a week. My mind and body and yoga practice have been invigorated by these classes!

Swim — 10–20 laps Happens 1-2x per week

Walk — Just get out and walk. Happens 2-3x per week

More Plans — Medicate with cannabis as needed.

  • 1-3 inhales from a vaporizer with a CBD-rich strain first thing in the morning if panic/anxiety/pain not relieved by self care bodywork is on board – Will be trying Mary’s Nutritionals CBD Products for relief of these symptoms 
  • 2–3 inhales from a vaporizer with an indica-dominant strain by 7:30pm to reduce tension and promote sleep. Dakini Kush is an indica dominant strain that I’ve been using nightly. I’ve been sleeping well through the night for a couple weeks. Thank goodness!

Goal — To Nourish My Body To Heal Up From Depression, Anxiety, and Panic

Plan – In the morning — Smoothie (I have a kefir, kombucha, Vega Protein Powder, and Amazing Grass Superfood smoothie every morning.)

28 Days of Clean Eating inspired meals – Love this book, need to focus on implementing this plan. It’s too easy to fall into cooking ruts!

 

 


Day 30: The Suck of PMS

I wish I could report that I slept well and that I am feeling good today. But I’m not. It’s the furthest thing from the truth at this moment. I woke up feeling like I was dying again. Panic bit me in the face. And the walls came crashing in as I self-destructed through this Saturday morning. I will attempt to salvage the day. But I am angry. I am angry that this bitch called PMS just shows up every month. PMS is a wrecking ball. It destroys feelings of wellness, disrupts plans that are working, and creates serious disharmony in my marriage. I hate it. I don’t readily hate anything. But I hate PMS. I especially hate that it’s just something that women go through. Every. Damn. Month. And I hate that men have absolutely no clue what this feels like. Nope. Women suffering from this on the regular just get painted with the irrational psycho brush. It’s not fair. This syndrome takes so much from me every month, and it takes prisoners too. I hate it. I don’t want to suffer and I try to be mindful every month. But here it is again. The suck of PMS.

Dear readers, I wish I had more positive vibes to send out today. I have to focus on reducing my anxiety, and facing the anger. I’m sifting through my toolbox to figure out how I will help myself. I will try my best to feel better. But right now…I am lost in my own disharmony. I hope that your day is starting off better than mine. I wish you well always. Wish me luck!

Namaste ❤


My Mental House – Plans & Goals for Healing from Depression

Goal — To Gain Clarity

Plan — Meditate for at least 10 minutes daily, eventually expanding on the amount of time a couple minutes per day, with 20 minutes of daily meditation being the target sit time.  I meditate on most days for anywhere between 5-20 minutes. Meditation helps me to set positive intentions for the day. On the most difficult days, I’ve noted that meditation really helps me to work through my symptoms. I depend on deep breathing to bring me back to the present when depression knocks me into the past, or anxiety flings me into worrying about the future.

More Plans — Go to bed and get up at the same time every day. Lights out by 10pm and wake up at 7am would be a good starting point for me. Lights have typically been out between 10-11pm. Waking happens between 7-8am. I’ve been sleeping well consistently for a couple weeks. This schedule has really been working out for me.

Goal — To Reduce and Prevent Insomnia

Plan – No electronic devices before meditation/yoga practice in the morning. Never. My phone and tablet aren’t even allowed in the bedroom. This is so important for me to have a fresh start daily. No electronic devices for at least one hour before bedtime.Yeah…Gotta get better about this!!! 

Plan – Read more books instead of staring at electronic devices, especially at night READ BOOKS, NOT ELECTRONICS!!! Definitely need to implement this plan. I NEED A NOVEL!!! Or a memoir!!! Suggestions welcome!!!

Goal — To Relieve Depressed Mood, Anxiety Symptoms, and Relieve Pain

Plan — Move!!!! Yoga, Swim, Walk – DO ONE OF THESE ACTIVITIES DAILY – Moving daily helps  me to be grounded and present. 

Yoga — Attend at least 2 classes a week, practice most days of the week for a minimum of 15 minutes a day. Practice in the morning after waking. May precede meditation. I’ve been attending aerial yoga, heated vinyasa classes – sometimes 3 times a week. My mind and body and yoga practice have been invigorated by these classes!

Swim — 10–20 laps Happens 1-2x per week

Walk — Just get out and walk. Happens 2-3x per week

More Plans — Medicate with cannabis as needed.

  • 1-3 inhales from a vaporizer with a CBD-rich strain first thing in the morning if panic/anxiety/pain not relieved by self care bodywork is on board – Will be trying Mary’s Nutritionals CBD Products for relief of these symptoms 
  • 2–3 inhales from a vaporizer with an indica-dominant strain by 7:30pm to reduce tension and promote sleep. Dakini Kush is an indica dominant strain that I’ve been using nightly. I’ve been sleeping well through the night for a couple weeks. Thank goodness!

Goal — To Nourish My Body To Heal Up From Depression, Anxiety, and Panic

Plan – In the morning — Smoothie (I have a kefir, kombucha, Vega Protein Powder, and Amazing Grass Superfood smoothie every morning.)

28 Days of Clean Eating inspired meals – Love this book, need to focus on implementing this plan. It’s too easy to fall into cooking ruts!