Guardian Angel

I am sitting in the waiting room of one of the best hospitals in the world, waiting for a dearly loved one to get out of a needed surgery. A surgery that will provide a diagnosis and answers for what we may be facing as a family. Whatever it is, we will face it as a family. Whatever it is, you bet your ass we will give it hell. Whatever it is, we’ll face it together every step of the way.

And speaking of family…I know that my loved ones who have left this physical world are always with me, but sometimes they make sure I know when they’re more present than usual. They typically make their presence known in mysterious and mischievous ways. Well, one of them made it clear that she is here with us today. Thank goodness.

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2005ish? From left to right…Spirit Angel Auntie Melinda, Earth Angel Grampy, and me 

My dearly loved one needed to get admitted to the hospital ahead of surgery. We were greeted by a young woman named Melinda. She shares this name with one of our angels…Melinda is my Aunt who passed away a few years ago. She was my guardian angel here on Earth, and she continues her role from the spirit world. I took this coincidence to mean that she is here with us. She always took her guardian role seriously, so I’m not surprised she showed up today. Thank you Auntie. I appreciate it. I know Darby does too. Love you and miss you.

Dear readers…Please send prayers and healing energy. Because my dearly loved one needs it and deserves it. He really does.

As always – wishing you a bright and beautiful day dear readers. Much love, many hugs. Namaste ❤


When You Are A Calming Influence in the Storm…

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Life has been a trial lately. There have been sharp right turns off of the map into uncharted territory. There have been urgent matters, a loss, and emergencies in the lives of my greatest loves, my people, my humans. Crisis has sort of splashed itself all over this very young year. And it’s all very personal in a way that I couldn’t anticipate.

With these events, I realize that there are no accidents in life. Everything is meant to be as it is. And for some of my greatest loves in life, I have been able to use my professional skills and training to assist them in their times of need. I am grateful that I am able to help. I realize that I am the calm in the storm at times, or I am at least well-equipped to steer the boat into calmer waters. It’s a role that I am committed to playing, but I have to help myself with the same level of commitment.

BECAUSE THERE IS AN ABSOLUTE ENDLESS SUPPLY OF GOOD HAPPENING RIGHT NOW TOO!!!! AND I NEED TO SHOW UP FOR THAT EVERY DAY!!!

Admittedly, I have crumbled, I have fallen apart a few times. I have been anxious and fatigued for months. I have overreacted to challenging stimuli. I have been a bit lost. I have literally fallen on my ass with legs flying out from underneath me. (Thank goodness for yoga or I would have broken my ass!)  Life will keep throwing things at you until you face the music. At least, that’s how it goes for me. Life can get really noisy and loud. And I need to turn the volume down. And I need to face the music. For me, it’s answering this question…What actions do I need to take to feel better?

To this end, I realize that I need to be writing. I realize that I have been resistant to writing because I have been afraid to let all off this emotion out. I’ve been trying to keep it all under wraps, and those wraps are failing. So I will be writing about it.

photo-broken-cup-iv.pngSo dear readers, I look to you to keep me accountable once again. Because my self-care cup has a crack, it’s leaking, and it barely gets filled. Time to change this. Time to commit to taking care of me in the same way that I will always take care of my greatest loves, my people, my humans, my community. Because I deserve the same level of care. And I’m the best person for the job. I can do this. I know how to do this. I must do this.

Stay tuned for an action plan. And if you too have a cracked, leaking cup…Let’s join forces so we can fill our cups with nourishing, delicious self-care together. Reach out to me!

As always dear readers, I wish you a bright and beautiful day. Much love, many hugs. Namaste. ❤



Gentle Reminder to Self

Dear Self,

Just a gentle reminder – You have very good days when you step onto your mat and practice yoga first thing in the morning. You should practice every day. It’s like good day insurance.

Be Well. You deserve it.

Love Marissa

P.S. Holding the tiniest of blessings in your arms also brings immense joy. Do that often too. 💙


It’s Been a Hot Minute…

2017…The year ended scraping and scratching it’s way out the door. Somehow, I got that door closed, locked, and barricaded. I am grateful for all of the good that 2017 brought me. And I will be grateful for all of the challenges that 2017 presented, but I am still recovering. Honestly. I am still recovering. It’s all good though. Onward and upward.

2018 is gonna be a good year. I’ve been on this learning curve. I’ve been learning about myself, learning how to be a Mom, learning how to be a better wife, friend, family member. And I’ve been learning how to integrate my passion for all things health, healing, wellness, and cannabis into a functional career. It’s been a whirlwind. And I honestly didn’t feel like writing about it until now. So here I am…writing about it. If you’ve missed me, just know that I will be back to blogging on the regular. Because I have a lot to tell you.

For now, I just wanted to say hello. And that I’ve missed you. And I hope that this New Year has invigorated you, lifted your spirits, helped you dust off from anything that might have knocked you down last year or beyond. My goal this year is to be present. To be here now. To not get lost in anxiety land, or to get thrown back into the past where depression lingers. It’s a goal that I need to achieve to live my best life. So you’ll see me planning, goal-setting, and creating strategies for success here.

As always dear readers, I hope your days are bright and beautiful and full of warmth. Seriously. It’s absolutely frigid here in my home state! Anyway – Much love, many hugs. Namaste. ❤