Yesterday, I was really bummed out because I’ve been working really hard to reduce and eliminate this depressive funk I’ve been in since weaning my daughter from breastfeeding. Unfortunately, despite all of my efforts, PMS turns up bearing her teeth which tends to make me feel like I’m starting from square one every damn month. Panic and anxiety consumed a fair amount of yesterday. I couldn’t shake feeling sad, and at times lost. I medicated with cannabis several times to elevate my mood and to promote sleep last night. I was glad to put the day to rest. I did sleep, I feel much better this morning. Onward and upward.
So in my efforts to make myself feel better, I went to the local bookstore to purchase a book that’s been on my radar this summer. But it seemed like not much was going my way yesterday, certainly not much good anyway. So the bookstore was sold out of the book I wanted. Sigh. We did find a very cool book for a new buddy who is currently incubating and due to arrive this fall. I’ll be celebrating with his Momma today as we are showering her with everything she’ll need to welcome him into this world. Can’t wait!
Anyhow, back to yesterday. We had a couple other errands to run and in the process, Little Miss Toddler Girl fell asleep for her nap. So I opened the Kindle app on my phone and decided to dig into the electronic version of the book.
Money: A Love Story is by Kate Northrup. Kate Northrup is the daughter of world-renowned OB/GYN physician and best-selling author Dr. Christiane Northrup. Dr. Northrup provided the Foreword for Kate’s book. She discussed her own history of getting her financial house in order as a young married woman, she discussed how ignorant she was as she worked from debt to financial freedom, and she also discussed the connection between financial health and the health of the second chakra. This chakra centers on the organs of reproduction, the function of the bladder, part of the bowel, and the low back. Hmmm. This helped me to connect some dots. I don’t have bowel issues thankfully, by my low back is always sensitive and obviously my hormones are out of whack. So I’m looking forward to diving into this book and I’m very inspired to work toward financial freedom, so that my body can be well too. Me thinks it’s time for the student debt to take a long, permanent walk. I knew I’ve been needing this book! I will keep you on my journey toward financial freedom.
Dear readers – Thank you for being here. I appreciate it. Wishing you a bright, beautiful day today and always! Much love, many hugs, Namaste. <3
My Mental House – Plans & Goals for Healing from Depression
Goal — To Gain Clarity
Plan — Meditate for at least 10 minutes daily, eventually expanding on the amount of time a couple minutes per day, with 20 minutes of daily meditation being the target sit time. I meditate on most days for anywhere between 5-20 minutes. Meditation helps me to set positive intentions for the day. On the most difficult days, I’ve noted that meditation really helps me to work through my symptoms. I depend on deep breathing to bring me back to the present when depression knocks me into the past, or anxiety flings me into worrying about the future.
More Plans — Go to bed and get up at the same time every day. Lights out by 10pm and wake up at 7am would be a good starting point for me. Lights have typically been out between 10-11pm. Waking happens between 7-8am. I’ve been sleeping well consistently for a couple weeks. This schedule has really been working out for me.
Goal — To Reduce and Prevent Insomnia
Plan – No electronic devices before meditation/yoga practice in the morning. Never. My phone and tablet aren’t even allowed in the bedroom. This is so important for me to have a fresh start daily. No electronic devices for at least one hour before bedtime.Yeah…Gotta get better about this!!!
Plan – Read more books instead of staring at electronic devices, especially at night READ BOOKS, NOT ELECTRONICS!!! Definitely need to implement this plan. I NEED A NOVEL!!! Or a memoir!!! Suggestions welcome!!!
Goal — To Relieve Depressed Mood, Anxiety Symptoms, and Relieve Pain
Plan — Move!!!! Yoga, Swim, Walk – DO ONE OF THESE ACTIVITIES DAILY – Moving daily helps me to be grounded and present.
Yoga — Attend at least 2 classes a week, practice most days of the week for a minimum of 15 minutes a day. Practice in the morning after waking. May precede meditation. I’ve been attending aerial yoga, heated vinyasa classes – sometimes 3 times a week. My mind and body and yoga practice have been invigorated by these classes!
Swim — 10–20 laps Happens 1-2x per week
Walk — Just get out and walk. Happens 2-3x per week
More Plans — Medicate with cannabis as needed.
- 1-3 inhales from a vaporizer with a CBD-rich strain first thing in the morning if panic/anxiety/pain not relieved by self care bodywork is on board – Will be trying Mary’s Nutritionals CBD Products for relief of these symptoms
- 2–3 inhales from a vaporizer with an indica-dominant strain by 7:30pm to reduce tension and promote sleep. Dakini Kush is an indica dominant strain that I’ve been using nightly. I’ve been sleeping well through the night for a couple weeks. Thank goodness!
Goal — To Nourish My Body To Heal Up From Depression, Anxiety, and Panic
28 Days of Clean Eating inspired meals – Love this book, need to focus on implementing this plan. It’s too easy to fall into cooking ruts!