This morning I woke up anxious after a good sleep, but a very long day with my daughter. She’s 2.5 years old and yesterday she tested every boundary she could cross. Or at least, I feel that’s what she was working toward. So today, I got up late because Little Miss Toddler Girl was still pushing limits as we were trying to get to sleep at a reasonable time last night. I’m not sure what time we all fell asleep. There were several attempts to keep Little Miss Toddler Girl in the bed. I was done. I was ready to put our long day to rest and make way for a fresh one. Finally, she was quiet, and still, and we were able to get to sleep.
Upon waking, I realized that I need to get out of the house, and stay out today. For my sanity. No, this Mama will not be juggling household chores with phone calls and writing today. Which is typically how I spend my Tuesdays. So, I’m spoiling myself today.
So…what does a Mama who is absolutely committed to spoiling herself do? I dropped Little Miss Toddler Girl off at daycare and headed to my first Aerial Yoga class. And I might be a teeny bit obsessed with it. For someone who has been struggling with anxiety first thing in the morning – my yoga practice typically centers on rooting down to build a strong foundation from my feet upward. Today – I was flying above the floor. I was lifted. I was supported. I was challenged. I loved every second of this class. And I feel lighter (and more toned!) than I have in a while. Wow. I really, truly, honestly feel great as I write this. And man, I am so incredibly grateful!
If you are local and you too are interested in soaring through your yoga practice, check out the Dolphin Studio in Leominster, Massachusetts. The first class is FREE!!! No yoga practice necessary – beginners are welcome. If you’re not local to the great state of Massachusetts, then look in your own community for a similar class. Heck, do it for the floating savasana – the final resting posture of most yoga practices. You get to extend your legs and lie down in your hammock and just be rocked for a few minutes. Folks, grownups need to be rocked too! We rock babies to calm them, to help their central nervous systems come to a place of peace and calm. THIS is exactly what I was able to enjoy in my own yoga hammock. Peace and calm. And floating. Floating. I’m still floating.
So now I am at this lovely cafe in the neighboring town (shout out to Chaibo!), writing my blog post and slurping down a chai tea latte. This Mama could get used to this whole spoiling thing. And perhaps, my mindset needs to change because as I write this, I realize how desperately I’ve needed a day like this. One that belongs to me. Just me. One that fills my cup. One that makes me feel weightless. And well. No, this is not me being spoiled. This is me taking care of me. This is self-care. This is self-love. And this Mama deserves both.
Dear readers – I wish you a bright and beautiful day as always! Much love, many hugs, Namaste. <3
My Mental House – Plans & Goals for Healing from Depression
Goal — To Gain Clarity
Plan — Meditate for at least 10 minutes daily, eventually expanding on the amount of time a couple minutes per day, with 20 minutes of daily meditation being the target sit time.
More Plans — Go to bed and get up at the same time every day. Lights out by 10pm and wake up at 7am would be a good starting point for me.
Goal — To Reduce and Prevent Insomnia
Plan – No electronic devices before meditation/yoga practice in the morning. No electronic devices for at least one hour before bedtime. DEFINITELY NEED TO IMPLEMENT THIS PLAN!!! I’ll be in bed by 9pm tonight.
Plan – Read more books instead of staring at electronic devices, especially at night READ BOOKS, NOT ELECTRONICS!!!
Goal — To Relieve Depressed Mood, Anxiety Symptoms, and Relieve Pain
Plan — Move!!!! Yoga, Swim, Walk – AERIAL YOGA ROCKS!!!!
Yoga — Attend at least 2 classes a week, practice most days of the week for a minimum of 15 minutes a day. Practice in the morning after waking. May precede meditation.
Swim — 10–20 laps
Walk — Just get out and walk.
More Plans — Medicate with cannabis as needed.
- 1-3 inhales from a vaporizer with a CBD-rich strain first thing in the morning if panic/anxiety/pain not relieved by self care bodywork is on board
- 2–3 inhales from a vaporizer with an indica-dominant strain by 7:30pm to reduce tension and promote sleep. I feel a cannabis holiday on the horizon. Perhaps for 3 days, perhaps for longer. CBD products should arrive soon.
Goal — To Nourish My Body To Heal Up From Depression, Anxiety, and Panic
28 Days of Clean Eating inspired meals – Gotta pull a recipe for tonight’s supper