I have a bald spot. It’s small, it’s hidden. But it’s there. I discovered it the other day. As you might have guessed, my mind is running wild with potential causes of this hairless patch on my head. And trust me, nurse minds run wild in all sorts of worst-case scenario directions.
TMI warning…SKIP THIS PARAGRAPH IF YOU’RE SQUEAMISH. A little (kind of gross) background about my health. I have suffered with allergies my entire life – I’m allergic to every kind of tree pollen in New England and Florida, possibly the world. My skin is super sensitive and reactive, so I have to be careful of what I come in contact with. I’m allergic to most things furry. Coming in contact with horses causes my airway to swell. And my immune system doesn’t fend off fungus well. So I’ve had my experience with tinea, aka ringworm, more times than I’d like to recount. Long story short given my history – my first thoughts after a summer full of swimming in public pools turned to tinea capitis – fungal infection of the scalp. Gross.
However, after careful consideration for the full spectrum of symptoms I’ve experienced lately, I think it’s time for me to get to a doctor, see what they have to say about this bald spot, and have some lab work done. Fatigue, anxiety, depression, insomnia, hair loss are likely symptoms of a hormonal imbalance that I need to treat. NOW. Leave it to a bald patch to trigger me into panic first, but then lead me to a place of determination. I’m determined to figure out what’s going on with my body. And I’m determined to heal. Hopefully there is not fungus among us. And hopefully whatever it is that is driving this disharmony in my body can be resolved with natural interventions. So wish me luck as I deal with another layer of icky-ness. I know the Universe is challenging me. Challenge accepted dear Universe. Challenge accepted.
As always dear readers, thank you for reading. Wishing you all a blessed, non-balding day! <3
My Mental House – Plans & Goals for Healing from Depression
Goal — To Gain Clarity
Plan — Meditate for at least 10 minutes daily, eventually expanding on the amount of time a couple minutes per day, with 20 minutes of daily meditation being the target sit time. Meditation did happen today, yoga will happen tonight as I attend class.
More Plans — Go to bed and get up at the same time every day. Lights out by 10pm and wake up at 7am would be a good starting point for me.
Goal — To Reduce and Prevent Insomnia
Plan – No electronic devices before meditation/yoga practice in the morning. No electronic devices for at least one hour before bedtime. DEFINITELY NEED TO IMPLEMENT THIS PLAN!!! I’ll be in bed by 9pm tonight.
Plan – Read more books instead of staring at electronic devices, especially at night READ BOOKS, NOT ELECTRONICS!!!
Goal — To Relieve Depressed Mood, Anxiety Symptoms, and Relieve Pain
Plan — Move!!!! Yoga, Swim, Walk
Yoga — Attend at least 2 classes a week, practice most days of the week for a minimum of 15 minutes a day. Practice in the morning after waking. May precede meditation.
Swim — 10–20 laps 2–3x per week
Walk — Walk daily — sometime during the day. Just get out and walk.
More Plans — Medicate with cannabis as needed.
- 1-3 inhales from a vaporizer with a CBD-rich strain first thing in the morning if panic/anxiety/pain not relieved by self care bodywork is on board
- 2–3 inhales from a vaporizer with an indica-dominant strain by 7:30pm to reduce tension and promote sleep. – Usually take 2-3 inhales from a CBD-rich strain in the early afternoon as needed for pain and anxiety, and 3 inhales from an indica-dominant strain at 7:30pm to promote sleep. I slept okay last night. The quality of my sleep definitely needs improvement.
Goal — To Nourish My Body To Heal Up From Depression, Anxiety, and Panic
And to keep things simple, I’ve invested in this book to help me get on a better track with nourishing my body. I eat relatively well, but I could certainly use more fresh foods and less convenient carbohydrates. My dear friend and I will be following this plan together. Grocery shopping was completed yesterday. Today I’ll be digging into a few recipes and meal prepping for the remainder of the week/weekend.